I wish there were a book that teenagers, Spouses, Parents, Friends etc... could read that would be so descriptive that the reader would immediately feel what its like to have high anxiety. Just for that moment. Just so they would know what you yourself are feeling at that moment.
My son, who is a lot like most teens at his age (17) comes home a lot and wants to leave with friends. He's social, loud, and feels no fear. Quite the contrast compared to his Mother who just jumped at the sound of the front door opening like her life was in danger.
He comes charging through the front door boisterous and asking me to meet his friend Vinnie who was still outside. My mind and heart racing and my body paralyzed in what can only be described as an overwhelming fear and tensity declines this meet and greet citing sickness. I then proceed to tell him that its rude to just bring someone over without calling first.
And now I sit here in shame, tears welling up because I don't know how to cope with this situation.
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